New Stuffies!!!!

A lot of stuff has come up in the past couple of days...
I talked to a very reputable trainer who trains pros and it took me a while to get some info off of him, because he "retired" from the training business last year. anyway, we talked in detail about what i'm doing, bodyshape, training, yada yada yada and i explained what i'm doing this year. so he gave me some advice to keep cardio in from the begining, add some carbs to the diet (very small amounts) and decrease the fat intake a bit. I said before that i won't be taking in any carbs, but after he explained to me that if i don't want to look flat all the time, i'd have to keep them in and keep them to a minimum. anyway, i wrote up my diet program and it's 360 grams of protein, 160 grams of carbs, and 80 grams of fat.

I kept thinking about the training method and how i can make it better. I won't change it, but i made little adjustments. since chest and biceps are my lagging bodyparts, i will pre-exhaust them before the heavy sets. and that's basically the change i'm making.

The ittifag coach called me on eid and he told me that there's a contest in 6 weeks. hell, i'm cutting anyway, and I want to get into the best condition possible, so this contest will help keep me on track. I'm not shooting for winning the damn thing, but i just want to compete in this one to stay on the diet and hopefully step on stage in 10-12 weeks in the best condition of my life in the kingdom championship. I took 3rd 2 years ago, so i'll try to get a better placing this year.

It's been 8 weeks now. i have only trained 7 times in these 8 weeks and i've been eating 1-2 junk meals per day and some candy bars and shit in between. basically i'm a normal person. I'd be lucky if i got 100 grams of protein per day. Although it seemed like i ate an ice cream cake on a daily basis, i still lost a ton of weight (mostly muscle). are you ready for this? in 8 weeks i went from 205 lbs to 189 lbs! 16 fucking lbs!!! this is while eating crap and not working out. It feels like shit to tell you the truth. being normal is something i don't want to be. you know why? being normal means being lazy, bloated, feeling like shit, knowing your health is going down the shitter... etc. I would routinely have chest pains, light brown urine, constipation, ass piss, severe pain in the abdomin from gas... etc! most people think this is a normal part of life. WELL IT'S NOT!!! anyway, i said before that what i do is not healthy... now i say, fuck that! it is!

Today's friday. i went and did morning cardio... it felt like taking heroin after coming out of rehab... fucking awesome!! started my diet, and will start working out tomorrow. I'm just fucking excited about this :) ... took some pictures yesterday and will post pics every 4 weeks. i look like shit here, and the muscle loss is obvious. hopefully the rebound will be "dramatic" next month :)