I gotta hand it to all you

fat people... seriously, how do you do it? i'm getting fatter by the day right now, and the belly is as uncomfortable as shit!! especially after i eat. my stomach (top of it) sticks out and i feel like it's gonna blow. and when i sit down, it feels like i'm gonna give birth. I hate myself for this (which explains all the ice cream and brownies i ate in the past 3 days), and I need to do something about this.... naaaah... maybe i'll just eat more ice cream and brownies.

Prison Break

damn that shit is intense!!! My maryooma really gets into it... i mean when something wrong happens, she just turns at me and starts yelling at me like i fucking did it! i'm not complaining, it's fun :) ... we need atleast 6 seasons of this shit, not that "lost" crap that's going on.

Contests

yeah, fuck it. i'm not doing any of the shows this year. i'm too out of shape, and to be honest, i haven't changed from last year. This drilling shit really put a dent into my progress in bodybuilding... and basically life. The ittifaq team coach called me yesterday, i know what he wants. He just called to sucker me in to competing this year. I'll tell him that i'll compete under one condition, if he pays for all the expenses (around 3000 riyals per month), i'll gladly compete. if not, i won't waste my fucking money on being the laughing stock of that contest. I'll see what he says today. Actually, iknow he won't pay and i know what he's gonna say... he's gonna say "you have to prove to everyone that you're a champion like last year... you can't call yourself a bodybuilder without competing... blah blah blah"... heard it before... i'm not too keen on spending half my pay to get ready for a contest that helps me prove absolutely nothing.

Leaving

in three days... i don't think i'll be updating my blog. i'm going to malaysia on tuesday, and i'll be coming back on the 4th of september inshallah. hopefully i'll get some sleep and take a break from all this damn food... i want to eat like, twice a day or something... give my body a break... and do some cardio and shit... we'll see about that...

Update

i got fat... i talked to my new trainer, skip, and we agreed that instead of getting ready for the contests and shit, he'd just train me for 9 months and i'll see how it goes. ofcourse, after skip trains me, my rates will go up. and i'll have a 3 month minimum training period. i'm sick and tired of people hiring me for 1 month then saying "i didn't see the results i wanted... i don't think i want to continue"... i guess if a fat ass wants to hire me again, i'll use a keto diet with his ass and make him drop 40 lbs in 3 weeks... that'll make them happy, and slightly dead...