I went to the hospital last saturday to see a doctor about my throat. you know, i can't even remember the last time i went to the hospital to see a doctor. i usually go twice a year to get my blood work, i don't even see the doctor, i just call him. but last time i remember was when i went to the university clinic to see a doctor about my stomach in january '05. i remember i just finished up my second M1T/4-AD cycle and i had a slight case of gyno... it scared the shit outta me. so, i kept increasing my nolvadex dosage til i reached 80 mg/day. well, apparently one of the side effects of that high a dose is ... well.. severe constipation i guess. I never read about that side effect, but all i know is that i couldn't shit for ten days... and i was still eating my 5-6 meals/day... don't even try to imagine how that feels like cuz you'll never knowl... i felt so relieved when i shit out 2 kilos of... well... shit... anyways... back to the hospital... i think i remember why i've always hated hospitals. first of all, they defy the whole point of getting better. you go sit in a waiting room full of about 200 people... all sick... with different illnesses.. so, you're bound to get even more sick by just waiting in that room. you have a cold? you go back home with a cold, and an ear infection... anyway... the cool thing about the hospital i went to was that they don't schedule appointments for ENT doctors. so, i had to wait for 2 and a half hours to see the f***er. lots of fun when you're waiting that long... sick... especially when you run out of strepsils on your 38th minute of waiting... finally, my turn. i went in and told him "doctor, i have a really bad case of tonsilitis. i've never seen an infection like this"... so he says "you mean a sore throat?" i said "no.. i mean an infection. i can see bacterial colonies on my tonsils!! so you don't have to do a colony test and waste more time. i've been on 1500 mg of amoxycillan for the past 2 days and it's not helping. i need something stronger." .... So, the doctor puts me on his chair that he stole from the chucky cheese pizza place... you know the chair i'm talking about... don't act stupid. anyway, starts poking my tonsils with a q-tip on steroids (you know, the 3 foot long q-tips doctors use to aggrevate patients). turned on his flash light and almost jumped in my stomach. anyway, after wasting 25 minutes of his, my, and all the people waiting outside's time... he says "you have an infection".... REALLY?? NO SHIT??? who would've guessed?? .... he gave me some antibiotic (they're supposed to be strong... but i haven't noticed shit).. and he said he'd prescribe a strong pain killer for me (i told him i had trouble sleeping from the pain). went to the pharmacy.... took the "strong pain killers"... fevadol... f***ing fevadol... 7 years of med school to tell me that i have an infection, and give me fevadol. i went back home... tired... in pain... my throat is all dry and swollen... i couldn't talk... and all i had was f***ing fevadol...
well, since i've already wasted 2 months on shrinking and not eating like i should (marriage, honeymoon, infection) i'm not taking my tonsils out til after the contest. i can't afford to spend 3 more weeks not eating anything... oh, and they advise eating ice cream to bring down the swelling after a tonsillectamy... not only will i shrink... i'll get fat too... then you can just hand me a gun and close the door on your way out...
oh God I HATE hospitals.. i have some kind of phobia of them but i cant seem to remember its name.. and last month i had the worst experience of my life. everybody have their own kind of fear, but for me its always been the fear of hospitals and diseases to be more accurate_ caner….
ReplyDeleteand every time i have a pain somewhere in my body its always going to be cancer for me.. and as i said _ last month_ my right breast had a weird feeling in it. and im only 22 so why worry about breast cancer if your 22? but of course i read somewhere that it is possible that girls can get breast cancer in their early twenties. so my un convinced mother took me to her usual gynecologist and she examined me and told me that its going to be nothing inshalla but the x-ray guy should see you . He uesd the same machine they use for pregnant women ( i think its called sonar).. anyways, the whole time he was examining me i cant even describe what i felt. my whole life was flashing by as if it was an execution. anyways the doctor told me then: see i told you it was nothing, but again i like to be certain of things so you should have the other x-ray! so i can know deeply what is wrong with your breast. And again im telling you its nothing.))
so they took me to bigger x-ray machine, ( you know the big scary looking one?) that was designed only for breasts. i didn't know what was coming. i thought it was just about standing in front of it and let it take your picture. obviously i thought wrong.. the nurse squeezed it between two surfaces as if my breast was put in a sandwich. and then let the machine squeeze it more and more until i felt like it would explode. im telling you the pain was unbearable. but that was only half of it, coz the other half was putting my breast in a vertically way.. you see, this kind of x-ray is done to the breast in both ways vertical and horizontal :|
this time also my life flashed by, but with a "little" bit of screaming.. with my mother hearing me out side not knowing what in God's name is happing to her little daughter
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and i forgot to tell you how much i stayed in the waiting room with all kind of sick people.. not the kind that sick of cold.. but I mean really sick people ..one of them was a women who had an x-ray just like mine. she was with her husband and waiting to get the results. and one of the nurses told her how come she's having one while she just had one a few months ago. its very wrong and dangerous she said.)) coz its not supposed to be done more then one every tow or three years.
now, when i got back to my doctor, she told me with a smile on her face, that every thing is ok_ like she said_ and that im young and i shouldn't be bothering my mind with this stuff. ))
now this maybe the worst experience for me.. but i always think about the people who didn’t have a happy ending. but is there a happy ending? We're all eventually gonna die someday.. and another thing, why is it that we worry so much at the idea of knowing that we are dying, while it is better then sudden death.. at least from my sometimes contradicting opinion?
And sorry for the e6alah...w alla la yoreena ma nakrah goloo ameen.
it takes a lot of courage and patience to go through what you did. i'm glad you're ok. personally, i don't fear hospitals or doctors. i hate them. freakin' doctor doesn't even know how to cure a throat infection quickly. i'd like to see him try and cure cancer. f*** medical research. do they have a cure for cancer yet? NO! do they have a cure for the common f***ing cold yet? NO! i'll tell you what they have a cure for, a limp dick. that's what they put all their effort in these days.
ReplyDeleteSalamat bro, Allah yi3afeek in sha Allah..
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allah yisalmik, buddy. the infection is gone now and i'm only left with the sore throat. recovery is a bitch, man. it feels like there's a splinter in my throat. anyways, come this saturday and i'll be back in business.
ReplyDeleteMa Tshoof Shar big man. Takfeer Thnoob Inshallah.
ReplyDeleteGod man it seems that you have been through bad conditions and I know how it feels like when you lose muscles and cant eat well. But dont worry you will get it back BABY "Ronnie's way".
Get well buddy and get back on track we want to hear good results for your next competition.
Take care buddy and here is one for a good laughter that you will appreciate:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=LNgIczQT3Us&search=family%20guy
Salam :D
ishar ma yjeek, aptar. i went to the gym today... lost a little strength, i'm down to 275 on flat bench :'( ... But i'll bring it all back inshallah... YEAH BUDDY!!! NOTHIN' TO IT BUT TO DO IT BABAAAYYYY!!! it was pretty depressing in the gym today.. everyone had a dumb ass comment to say, like "where's the rest of your arm? ha ha ha"... i'll show them... all i need is 2 tons of potatoes, and 7 truck loads of tuna fish.... or something... seriously, sickness sucks :(
ReplyDeleteHAAAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!! STEWIE KICKS ASS!!!!! I WANT MY SON TO BE JUST LIKE HIM :)... except for the lemon shaped head.
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